Crying
Crying
My least favorite medicine.
I don't like to cry
or to admit that I've cried,
and most especially,
I don't like feeling
drained and debilitated
after crying.
Pointless suffering,
beyond existential imperatives,
and those difficult lessons
we must all face,
are what makes my chest heave
and my eyes swell full
with angry tears of powerlessness.
I'll cry too
when people join together
supporting each other in common cause,
acknowledging their humanity,
both the good and the bad,
in the faces and stories of others.
Maybe if I cried more often
and cried more easily
it wouldn't be so gut-wrenching.
And with a lighter heart
I might become more loving.
I'm an emotional gangster.
I cry once every month.
~ Cardi B
